I was diagnosed 5 months ago with HSV-2, and I feel good. My health isn’t always great, and I’m slowly coming to terms with the fact that I am manic depressive, but I’m okay. Most of the time I’m happy. I am normal, and I feel normal, more than I ever thought that I would. When I was first diagnosed, I had this feeling that I wouldn’t ever be or feel normal again. I would spend life being uncomfortable in my own skin. It’s just not like that.
I was talking with that boy last night. He told me that he wanted children and wanted to be a husband. He wanted a wife. Somehow, I’ve just never craved a husband like I have children. I told him that to have a husband seemed out of reach. I always imagined having children and never a husband.
“You want to be a single mom?” he said. No, he misunderstood me.
“Well, no. i just never imagined that someone would marry me. I could see loving someone that much, but I never imagined someone would love me that much. Kind of unattainable I guess?” I responded.
“Alright, I can see what you’re saying. But I’ve gotta say I can definitely see someone marrying and being in love with you. You’re definitely worth it.”
I didn’t really think about it. I just said thanks and we moved on in conversation. I cried about it this morning. It was truly a very nice thing to say. He doesn’t really know me. No matter what, I’m worth it, even if I don’t always believe it.